Quite often, towards the end of last year, I would tell people that I relished the opportunity to hibernate. To rest, reflect, do nothing significant for a prolonged period of time. After 2 years of intense upheaval, uncertainty and challenge it seemed like it was just what I needed; to touch base with myself, to recharge and reconnect.
This week I have an opportunity to do just that; but it is not as easy as one might imagine!
I am in between eye operations. Although the first one has been a success and I can see as expected by the surgeon, my clear, unaided sight is at reading distance. I can see to brush my teeth, use my smartphone and even cut my fingernails.
But I cannot see clearly beyond arm’s-length – and it will be 6 weeks before I am able to have an eye test to get my final distance spectacles. So I am off work with an ideal chance to do nothing.
The first challenge is to rise above the frustration of not being able to do all sorts of other things I might like to, to admit my limitations. Rational minds do not like to do either of these things . . . particularly at full moon.
I could spend all my time glued to my smartphone. But I do feel that would be a total waste of the opportunity I have. I do not need to do internet research or keep up to date with the Australian Open tennis, for example. Such activities would just be my rational mind attempting to justify it’s existence . . .
No, I need to use this time to develop my higher consciousness. If, despite my various restrictions at the moment, I can find inner peace, would that not be a useful intent?
Wish me luck!